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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 00:38

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

It was going to be , some day.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

What were some of the unforgettable incidents from your school life?

And i lived it daily.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

This is soul school!.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was 9 years of age.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Why don't younger men like older women?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why are there so many girls and not enough boys to follow?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Why did i forgive my father ?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

What happened to your school bully?

I was very sick at this time too.

Ive learnt so much.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She wouldn,t have been !

Is Trump the greatest spiritual leader since Jesus?

I was scared of men, in general

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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She loved him until the end.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Whenever I write a novel, I struggle with the end, should I make it open? Should the good win or the bad win? Sometime I don't even have an ending, what should I do?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I see ugly guys dating gorgeous, "hot" women all the time. I, too, am not very attractive but I'm not doing well with the ladies. What's their secret?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I write beautiful poetry .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She was in good health!

I think the readers, may guess!

So, i spoilt her more .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Im still living with it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Who then, do I blame.?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

We were not on the streets..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I waited trembling.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I will be 64.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My life is so biszare .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

They are buried together, in the same grave..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But, we were locked up after school.

She found it foreign!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I was seconnd youngest,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She married twice! .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One cannot live in the past .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Would this be the day?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My family never makes their pension either.

But it wasn’t much.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But ive been too sick for many years..

What did i know ?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I couldn’t, believe it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

When she asked me how she looked .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I said to her

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Put me off passion for life!!

All the time i was locked up.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I don,t even have a pension.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He resisted the act ,that day.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He knew the spot.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Comes on , in middle age.

I have no regrets .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

So whats the point in blame.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

We all went to grammer schools

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.